i know man, i know.....
it's honestly not a terrible place to end the game.... we've arguably moved into second place overall i think, which is pretty good considering our condition during much of the midgame. and we could end it without having to betray either of our gamelong besties. and well, do i even WANT to still be playing, or do i just feel like i /should/? it'd be another month of 3-hour turns, at least, for no better than like a 5% chance to unseat them......
to be honest, right now at this moment, i kinda want the game to be over
but i know better than to snap-concede when i'm (waiting on the stupid pharmacy to stock my meds again and) clearly not feeling all the way there emotionally. this turn, i will prepare to attack mjmd, sooner than i think is best for us but at least it will keep the others in the game. tomorrow maybe i'll concede, i'll let you know